This morning I woke up and thought about a snow globe. How often life can feel like that. Like you are holding a snow globe and looking in…Not involved, just ever watching, with a desire to join, but the glass keeping you out. Not many have seen from that perspective. Not many care to see from that perspective. And not many want you to talk about that perspective. But I know. I know the hurt of wonder. The questions that pop and explode and fill your mind when the invite never comes for the big event that everyone is flocking to.
If you share your pain and talk about it, others may tell you “you’re functioning out of an orphan spirit” or “that’s a spirit of rejection” or “you can’t be invited to everything” or “just be glad you didn’t have to buy a gift” but in that moment of being excluded you don’t think high level deliverance strategy or money saving techniques, you just feel hurt and you just feel left out. And bottom line, that just sucks. You try to make sense in your mind of your new Christian “family”. Your “brothers” and “sisters” who forgot to put you on their list again. How does that work exactly? How did it happen? The why and how can really trap you. But in reality it boils down to a few things. One is choice. The person chose to have someone else there that they knew better than you. Or the person didn’t know you. Never saw you. And we can all understand that. That makes sense, but it doesn’t push away the hurt.
And you feel alone in the outside. And that’s okay. Others may try to tell you just get over it. But your feelings are real and it’s okay to feel them. But don’t allow them to dictate your next steps or where you go from there! Because in spite of that, man oh man – God is such a comforter! And even though I’ve known the devastation of exclusion that most don’t understand, it’s given me such a perspective! Because outside here I have encountered God himself. The one who sees me!
Just like Hagar betrayed and alone in that desert, but God saw her!! And she had a real hurt, a real legit claim against Sarah. Sarah had just (may differ according to the Bible translation you read) mistreated her, dealt harshly with her, treated her harshly and humiliated her, afflicted her! We don’t know the specifics but she had hurt Hagar so grievously that she ran away into the desert (where only death could await her)! Sarah had a promise over her life and she was chosen by God but it didn’t stop her from abusing Hagar and feeling entitled to. Sometimes those around you may be walking with a promise over their lives, but it doesn’t mean they won’t make a mistake and hurt you. And guess what? We all go through that at times.
But in that desert of hurt and isolation – Hagar encountered God himself. God sent her an angel to speak to her! So she had a glory encounter! God told her “Return to your mistress, and submit yourself under her hand.” Often times our natural inclination is to run. “That’s it! I’m done with this! I’m looking for another church!” But God’s statement to return and submit didn’t just serve to humiliate her, it came with a promise attached! He said “I will multiply your descendants exceedingly, so that they shall not be counted for multitude!” At that time, such a promise meant security. It meant that Hagar would be safe! Even though she was alone, she would always have someone to provide and care for her as she aged.
At this point, Hagar gives God a new name, she says in Genesis 16:13 “Then she called the name of the Lord who spoke to her, You-Are-The-God-Who-Sees for she said, “Have I also seen Him who sees me?” Ugh! That verse just washes over my heart in such an indescribable way! So just like Hagar, I had often come to a place that felt like a desert, dry and alone and unseen by others. But there God saw me! And after encountering him and His love, I was able to stop and look around at others that were there with me. I never noticed them before. But being seen by God has this way of opening your eyes to see others who are unseen. Whatever the reason the invite didn’t come, don’t get caught in the why’s. Just don’t get stuck there. Because often there is a bigger purpose. God, the one who sees all, is there in that desert of exclusion and isolation waiting to encounter you! Will you take up His invitation?
So now when the invite doesn’t come and I see pictures going up on social media of an event that I wasn’t invited to. I hear God’s Whispers to my heart…
- My Father’s house has many rooms, if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? John 14:2
- Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. John 14:1
- I have loved you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3
- I see you and I love you.
- I choose you.
- And so many other beautiful things that aren’t verses but remind me of who I am to Him.
His quiet invitation trumps all others! And that intimacy with Him, man oh man, it surpasses going to someone’s wedding or special birthday party or vow renewal. It’s SO MUCH better! Because His Love is the Love that changes you. And in that place ugh you get so filled up with joy and hope. That you can see the people that didn’t invite you (and sometimes are uncomfortable even with their choice) and you can from your heart say “congratulations!” Or “happy birthday!” because you’re not outside the snow globe after all. God’s Love melted the pretense of a snow globe away! You’ve just been away in a secret place with God. Because in not receiving that earthly invite you got an eternal invite to something deeper with your Heavenly Father. And I choose that! So here today, I pray that all of your snow globes, all of your glass ceilings, that they all are melted away by God’s furious, all-knowing and seeing love! Praying that sharing my heart blesses you in some way today!